I am sitting here on the eve of Christmas Eve listening to "Hallelujah" watching a digital fire on the television and feeling very blessed.  By now I thought I would be holding my newborn baby in my arms, but unfortunately my baby is very comfortable in my womb and has not made its appearance yet.  However, I can feel it kicking and squirming in my womb as I am typing this.  My son is running around laughing and shining his brown eyes at me.  My hardworking husband has fallen asleep upstairs and we are all mostly healthy besides a little cough and stuffy noses.  God has blessed me so much.  Our bank account is almost empty, whose isn't around Christmas?  But our needs are met and my son is happy.  My heart is full tonight.  I am so thankful for this beautiful life I have been given, and for the beautiful blessings I have been given: my wonderful husband and two beautiful children.  My parents and my in-laws are so amazing.  They are so supportive and such fantastic grandparents to Elijah.  I am truly blessed this Christmas. 

Even though most of me doesn't want this baby to be born on Christmas (the child wouldn't have a day that is focused on them for their birthday, and I don't want to ruin my midwifes Christmas), part of me thinks it would be kind of neat to be birthing a child on the day that we honor Christ's birth.  I know that December 25th is not really the day Christ was born, it was more likely in the summer sometime.  But I think it would be a very spiritual moment laboring on the day that we think of as the day that Mary was laboring in the stable, working very hard to bring the Savior of the world into the world.  No matter what, laboring and birthing a child is a very spiritual experience, and I am looking forward to being able to do it again.  I am excited to be doing it in the place that, at least for now, I call home, with loved ones surrounding and supporting me.  But most of all I am looking forward to holding my new baby and looking into their eyes, their soul.

Hopefully my time will come soon.  I am eager to meet my baby.  I hope you have a blessed Christmas and I truly wish you love, peace, and joy!

With Much Love, Caitlyn (The Sustainable Mama)

Waiting for Baby

I really thought last night was going to be the night I was going to go into labor.  I had a sudden burst of energy to get everything cleaned and organized.  I also felt some very strong Braxton hicks and had a bit of mucous on the tissue when I wiped after using the restroom. 

I am a little over forty weeks and getting anxious to meet my sweet baby.  I want to hold it, and look into its precious eyes.  I want to kiss it and pat its little bottom.  I want to hear its sweet coos and watch it as it suckles at my breast.  I am so excited to meet my sweet baby.  I hope I go into labor soon.   
 
So today I am waiting patiently, some more, for my sweet baby to arrive.  I will take this time to get some laundry done, more cleaning, sewing our matching family Christmas pajamas, and playing with my fun little boy. I hope you are having a good day.  What are you up to this weekend?  Anything particularly exciting?  I hope all is well for you and wish you many blessings!
 
With Love, The Sustainable Mama